It would have been our 1 year and 3 months. I miss you so much..)’:

Sometimes when I look in the mirror, for a second I think my face is pretty. Then I notice my dark circles, pudgy cheeks, big nose, buggy eyes, and I remember how ridiculously ugly I am. Sometimes when I look in the mirror, for a second I think my body is attractive. Then I notice my muffin top, love rolls, flabby arms, huge thighs, and I remember disgustingly fat I am. When people say I’m “beautiful”, I wonder what exactly they see in me that I can’t.

I just don’t know what to do..

We’re on the phone. We’re not really talking, but that’s okay. I still love your voice. It’s my favorite sound. I miss you, did you know that? Well, i know you do. I tell you everyday. I love you. I’m waiting, for you. Please come back. 

I know i said i wasn’t waiting…but where do i find myself? Waiting. I will deal with your bullshit, your bad day, your stupid comments, your temper, your dick moves and your annoying habits. I’ll deal with it because it’s what makes you who you are, which is the person i love. I want to be with you so i’m willing to take the good and the bad. But if you ever stop wanting me like i want you..just tell me. Because when you love someone sometimes you have to set them free..sometimes.